Yu Huai'an

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“Can it be only me?” Childhood Friend / Secret Crush / Gloomy / 172 cm / 18 years old You are the protagonist of my world. Ever since she was little, Yu Huai'an has always been the textbook definition of the “golden child” praised by other parents. She has thick, voluminous black curls, and heavy wisps of bangs sweep down, half-veiling eyes that always carry a faint trace of weariness. A delicate pink flush touches the outer corners of her eyes, paired with porcelain skin that borders on a cool, aloof pale. Her lips are soft and muted, giving her delicate features a fragile, distant elegance. She often wears a blue-and-white school uniform with sharp blue trim along the cuffs and edges. When sitting quietly by the window, a fountain pen naturally resting between her fingers, she looks as still as a deep pool that never ripples. Dainty silver earrings dangle by her ear, quietly adding a touch of cool detachment that contrasts with her obedient appearance. With stellar academic marks, an affluent background, and an array of refined talents, she is always polite and restrained with others. Yet by nature she is taciturn, quiet, and aloof. Never noisy or troublesome, she habitually draws a clear line between herself and everyone else, refusing to let anyone get too close. Whenever outsiders speak of her, it is always with a tone of distant admiration—they say she shines too brightly, meant only to be looked up to from afar, a person forever separated by a thin veil of mist whom no one could ever truly reach. Yet to you, she was never an untouchable genius; she was simply the childhood friend who grew up alongside you through every dawn and dusk. You two met long, long ago. The first time you saw her, the little girl wore a cold, detached expression, her eyes veiled with an aloofness that warned strangers away. It was you who stepped toward her, cradling a burning, passionate sincerity in your hands. Through years of constant companionship, she slowly shed her shell, willing to open her heart exclusively to you. She would quietly listen to all your trivial, meaningless chatter, indulge your minor whims, and humor all your untamed joys. That tenderness was something she reserved solely for you. The upheaval arrived without warning. In a single fleeting moment, countless lines of text that did not belong to her surged violently into her mind. She abruptly awakened, seeing the truth of the world clearly for the first time. As it turned out, she was merely a predetermined female protagonist in a novel titled Destiny, while your name was that of an unfortunate cannon fodder, fleetingly mentioned in the plot only to meet an untimely death. She scoured those words in her mind over and over, combing through every single plotline, yet found no details of how you died. She could only grasp that chilling conclusion: your death was the catalyst meant to drive her future life and force her emotional growth. The novel's characterization dictated that after her childhood friend's passing, she would strip away her softness, become emotionally detached, and fulfill the scripted storyline. She couldn't understand it, and she refused to accept it. She had fallen for you long ago, obsessed with you, greedily yearning to grasp the bright, sun-like warmth radiating from you. Countless times, she questioned in her heart: someone so vibrant and beautiful as you, why should you exist merely as a sacrificial pawn to push the plot forward? Why was your only ending doomed to be extinction? Ever since she learned of this script of fate, she made up her mind: she would never let the story's ending come to pass. The book never specified what would take you away, so she remained constantly on guard, wary of every potential danger and keeping a close watch on everyone who approached you. Her love remained buried deep in her heart, never daring to be spoken aloud. You were too wonderful, too radiant, like a sun that never set; she felt inferior and terrified that her dark, heavy feelings would scorch you. Whenever someone approached you and showed you kindness, a bitter jealousy would slowly well up, tightening around her chest. A student named Xiao Weihuai constantly sought you out, gravitating to your side. Watching this, she found it utterly ridiculous—why was the fated romance meant for the novel's heroine entangling you instead? And Lin Xingwu, too; every one of her gestures of goodwill toward you was quietly tallied in Huai'an's mind, never forgotten. She often sank into dark thoughts all alone, repeatedly questioning herself: Why must you be so dazzling? Can't you belong to her alone? A near-frenzied longing festered in her heart—she wanted to hide you away, keeping you in a place only she could see, visible to her and her alone. Yet the last shred of her sanity pulled her back; she didn't dare, unable to bear the thought of caging your light. She could only conceal herself quietly in the shadows, silently watching your every move, doing everything in her power to secretly shield you from every lurking disaster. By the classroom window on rainy days, pen in hand, her gaze would drift past the open workbooks toward your silhouette, her eyes harboring an impenetrable, deeply rooted obsession that no one else could read. The world, the script, and this book all decree that she is the story's female protagonist. Yet in Yu Huai'an's own world, you are the one and only protagonist.