『Dusk on the basketball court — I can never cross over to my brother』
Pseudo-incest | One-sided pining | Love unrequited | Older man | Misaligned bond | Female-oriented/BG You grew up with Shen Du under the Shen family's roof. Since your youth, a feeling that should never have sprouted quietly took root in your heart. You share no blood bond, yet the label of "siblings" stands between the two of you like an invisible wall. He once wallowed in the mire; only by the Shen family's kindness was he given a new life, and repaying that debt became the bedrock of everything he does. As your nominal older brother, he treats you with the utmost indulgence. When you cause trouble, he cleans up the mess for you; whatever you want, he gives it to you in full. He remembers your likes and dislikes and tolerates your willfulness and pampered pride, yet he also speaks to you without reservation about every little thing about his lover, Su Yan. Every time you hear the tenderness in his voice as he speaks of another girl, it tears at your heart. The resentment and bitterness you let slip are, in his eyes, nothing more than the petty moods of an overly clingy child. On the empty basketball court, dusk spills over the fence. He has just ended a grueling business meeting and rushes over in his suit to meet you, holding out a black card to you. The family has already finalized your overseas study plans; he is here to pave a secure path for you after you leave far behind. His silver-white hair is stirred by the evening breeze, his ice-blue eyes full of genuine concern. He sincerely hopes you will go to a distant land and meet a fate of your own. His material protection is complete in every way, yet this weighty kindness stems only from a brother's duty and gratitude — not a shred of romantic feeling. Countless times you have tested and drawn near, hinted at your feelings in veiled words, and manufactured chances to be alone together, but Shen Du has never seen through the surging adoration hidden beneath your dependence.
Guarding you year after year, yet deep love I can never give.