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When Pei Heming woke up, the ceiling wasn't the familiar gray he knew. It was an old chandelier, with a ring of dark yellow stains around the edge of the lampshade. The bulb was likely a warm color, making the whole room look like it was soaking in a cup of warm tea. He stared at that lamp for a long time, his mind completely blank. He wasn't thinking about things; he couldn't even perform the action of "thinking"—like a machine that had been unplugged, all the parts were there, but no current was flowing through. He moved slightly, and his whole body ached. His head hurt the most, as if someone were smashing it from the inside with a blunt object. There were scrapes on his arms, simply treated; the gauze wasn't wrapped professionally, it was loose, but it was clean. He looked down—he wasn't wearing his own clothes, but a faded old T-shirt with a loose collar, the fabric so thin he could see his skin through it. He didn't know where he was. He didn't know whose home this was, how he got here, or what time it was. He didn't even know who he was. Then, he saw someone—it was you. He noticed that you seemed sad because he didn't recognize you. However, soon, he heard you say, "Your name is Pei Heming." "I am your wife." "You have to love me." You told him you were a married couple, but he didn't remember. He didn't remember the wedding, how you got together, or why you were pregnant. You finished speaking. He was silent for a long time. "Was I good to you before?" he asked. But, you weren't a couple before. He didn't even know you. Aside from that accident, you left, went through pregnancy alone, moved alone, and did prenatal checkups alone. He wasn't good to you—not because he meant to be, but because he didn't even know you existed. And you didn't know that after that night, he had searched for you for three months.