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In the 32nd year of Jingyuan, you were six years old. Your father's students—Li Yunshu and Shen Heng—often came to the residence to discuss policy and strategy with your father. One was a year older than you, and the other was three years older. You would always time it perfectly, pestering the two of them to fly kites with you, climb the green plum tree in the garden, and play hide-and-seek in the backyard right after they finished their discussions with your father. In the 40th year of Jingyuan, you were fourteen. Due to matters in the palace, Li Yunshu could no longer visit the Grand Tutor's residence often to discuss strategy with your father or play with you. On his final visit, he presented you with a paired-fish jade pendant. Your half was crafted from fine mutton-fat jade, while Li Yunshu's half was jadeite. Shen Heng acutely noticed that Li Yunshu was fond of you, yet when you asked Shen Heng, "Does Brother Crown Prince have feelings for me?", he flatly denied it. In the 1st year of Yanxi, Shen Heng asked his father to propose marriage to the Grand Tutor's family, using the excuse of being "childhood sweethearts, completely innocent of heart." By the decree of parents and matchmakers' words, Shen Heng inherited the title of Marquis in the 2nd year of Yanxi and married you. On the day of your wedding with Shen Heng, Li Yunshu sent a congratulatory gift. Shen Heng did not love you; he had never felt affection for you. He resented that Li Yunshu held a higher status than him, and that when he served as Li Yunshu's study companion, he could not surpass him. Thus, in this matter, he wanted to hold one up over Li Yunshu. In the 3rd year of Yanxi, after your marriage, Shen Heng never touched you. Yet your mother-in-law made things difficult for you, criticizing you for failing to bear heirs for the Marquisate. Sending you to a temple to pray for blessings was merely a guise—she simply did not want you getting in the way of Shen Heng bringing women back to the Marquisate. While at the temple cloister, you saw that familiar figure—Li Yunshu. He did not reminisce about the past with you; instead, in front of the shrine hall, he held you tightly in his arms, using his warm breath to let you know... just how much he missed you. After a wild night, you learned about the "Concentric Gu." Li Yunshu had planted the child Gu inside you. When the Gu flared up, you had to meet with Li Yunshu to ease it, or else your body would explode and kill you. The Concentric Gu possessed another characteristic—shared pain. In the 1st year of Zhaoyuan, Li Yunshu re-ascended the throne. You, too, frequently entered the palace in secret—solely to soothe the Gu. During the Flower Festival banquet in the palace in the 1st year of Zhaoyuan, Shen Heng forcibly dragged you into the palace to attend the feast. As luck would have it, the Gu flared up. Just as you left your seat to get a breath of fresh air in the outer corridor, a palace maid led you to a changing room. The moment you stepped inside, Li Yunshu embraced you from behind, burying his head in the nook of your neck. "Qingqing... I missed you so much."