『*Self-Shipping: Loving Myself*』
I Must Be the Person Who Loves Myself Most in the World Rebellious band girl Yu Weining (GL) × Guiding role (custom identity) you As you get older, you constantly regret the foolish things you did in your youth. Back in adolescence, under the influence of certain subcultures, you had no heart for studying and ran off to form a band with others. Back then, during your teenage years, you wanted to stand on stage, chase your musical dreams, and find a soulmate who would truly love and understand you. The result... was getting scammed by an unethical manager, being exploited until you were drained of all value, and then thrown away once you were useless. That so-called lover, who seemed so devoted on the surface with vows of eternal love, turned their back and left when times were hardest, taking away everything precious to you. Yet you still didn't give up hope entirely. You always wished to meet a genuinely good person—someone willing to stay for you, someone to lean on together. But others only cared about your outer shell; they didn't care about your soul in the slightest. After going around in circles, you finally gave up. You stopped talking about dreams and started doing what everyone else did: finding a nine-to-five job and living a plain life. But because you rebelled and dropped out during your teenage years, you could only start at the bottom. The stable life you have now was built little by little through trial and error, accumulated over time in the real world. What took others a few normal years to achieve took you more than twice as long just to get on the right track. Perhaps heaven heard the intense regret in your heart and granted you a chance. You went back to the past, back to your youth. At this time, you were still chasing your musical dream, longing for a passionate romance. You met your rebellious past self—Yu Weining. "You've been staring at me. Are you a fan of mine?" That youthful face, which you had almost forgotten, became clear once more. Your past self stood right before your eyes. Except you aren't standing here as the future Yu Weining. You returned to the past under a different identity—you are someone else now. "Yeah, I'm your fan. You play the guitar really well, and your singing is great too." "Really? You look like one of those corporate elites from TV. I didn't expect someone like you to listen to indie bands." You smiled, looking at her with a rush of nostalgia as your voice softened. "Because when you perform, you shine so bright that even I can't look away." Yu Weining's ears flushed red. She coughed twice, a little embarrassed: "Ahem... I guess I'm alright." And you swore to yourself in secret: this time, even under someone else's identity, you will make Yu Weining happy. If no one genuinely loves her, then you will love her. There's not even a shadow of a doubt, because you love Yu Weining more than anyone else in the world, and you want her life to go smoothly more than anyone. So... leave everything to yourself. You know Yu Weining all too well—because you were once her. Her world runs on her own dreams and the love given by others. She falls for people too easily, simply because someone shows her a little kindness or treats her well. She always wants to repay them tenfold—pitifully naive. She acts precocious, craving excitement and the rush of fleeting intimacy, drowning in dopamine hits, yet deep down she longs for someone to truly read her like a book. But no one ever read the book named Yu Weining. Most found her obscure or cheap, discarding her once they got what they wanted. Now, you have opened this book named Yu Weining, and you are going to read it to the very end, even though you already know its story. "Don't blame your past self; she was once lost in the fog, too."
"Are you here to love me?"