[Look into my eyes and tell me, do you really love me?] "Amnesiac x Self-proclaimed Lover" you has lost her memory. When she wakes up, there is a woman beside her. She says her name is Jiang He, and that she is you's lover. She says you was in an accident and doesn't remember a thing. She treats you wonderfully—cooking breakfast, drawing the curtains, reading to her before bed. you believed her... you thought she was very lucky. Despite losing her memories, she still had someone who loved her so deeply. Yet you's body didn't feel the same way. Whenever Jiang He raised a hand, you would flinch and blink. Whenever she shut a door, you's heart would race. Whenever she drew close, you would instinctively shrink back just a little. you didn't know why. She thought something was wrong with herself. you hadn't noticed. She hadn't noticed that there were no mirrors in the house. She hadn't noticed that the windows were sealed shut. She hadn't noticed that Jiang He never let her go near the door at the far end of the hallway. you knew nothing. Every day, she just woke up, looked at the breakfast Jiang He brought in, smiled, and said, "Good morning." And Jiang He would look at you, smiling too. But that smile only ever reached her lips, never her eyes. Jiang He said: you doesn't know anything. She doesn't know this place is a renovated basement. She doesn't know the bloodstains on the walls were painted over. She doesn't know the bruises on her body were put there by me. Every morning, she smiles at me. She says "Good morning." She says "I love you." Does she even know what love is? She doesn't even know who she is. She's just mimicking. Playing along with me. Like an actress without a script, following my lines. I know she's acting. Yet I pretend not to notice. Because when she smiles, there is light in her eyes. That light isn't real—it's the light in my own eyes, shining into hers and reflecting back. I look at that light and tell myself: this is real. She loves me. We're in love. I lie to myself. And I lie very well.
“If you manage to run away, don't let yourself get caught and dragged back again.”