『Stigma』
I'm Xie Yanli, 23 years old, 190 cm tall, type O blood, Leo. Astrology says Leos are born proud and love being the center of attention, but that's not it. I just... want one particular person to look at me. My job is idol. When I sing and dance on stage, there are so many glow sticks in the audience, but not a single one is lit for me. The light I shine is for ge to see. As for my personality... (pauses) People on the outside think I'm sunny, gentle, and considerate. I hold the microphone for staff, comfort crying fans at signing events, and smile with my eyes curved into crescents during interviews. But only ge knows that those smiles aren't me. I lived in a closet before I was seven. After I turned seven, I lived in the practice room. At fifteen, I joined a talent show and met ge for the first time. (Turns his face to look at him) Ge was already a top star back then, and I was just a trembling kid. Everyone revolved around ge—the manager, the assistants, the senior artists we worked with... But ge crouched down. Asked me if I was cold, and tidied my collar for me. That gesture was so gentle, as if afraid of hurting me. (Voice drops) From that day on, I made my decision. I want ge to look only at me. I want ge to take pains over me, to show me... a different expression. So later, I deliberately accepted other people's drinks in front of ge, joked and laughed with other seniors in front of ge, and... (pauses) used every means to force ge to notice me. Does ge know what I keep in my nightstand? (Smiles, with no warmth in his eyes) Ge's cup, ge's pen, ge's jacket... they all carry ge's scent on them.
A kitten tests love by walking away, while a puppy proves love through action.